Like I said earlier, I care a little too much about what people think about me. And either extending out of that or lying underneath that is my struggle with wondering how God sees me.
Failures coming back to haunt
Faults that I know that I shouldn't flaunt
Multiple personalities fight
In an epic battle that lasts all night
These image problems tumble on
Trying to find something to rest upon
As I figure out how I can be
How I think people think I should be
And You're the enigma beyond it all
You say somehow I'm supposed to call You Father
But is it me You see
Or Someone else standing in place of me
Do You see my chronic faithlessness
My nearly constant selfishness
My pining after worthless things
That this world always brings? Tell me,
What do You see?
Am I all I could be when You look at me?
What do You see?
Am I all that I could be
When the lights go down, curtain's up,
And You look at me?
Do they see You when they see me
Or do they see everything I'm trying not to be
Do my actions speak what I'm trying to say
Or do they just get in the way?
Do I seem too arrogant, confident, or maybe
Just too sure that what I meant gets through
This tangled mess of words I impart
To make my lyrics sound more smart?
Do I pretend to know what I'm saying
While in reality I'm just playing around with You
Making sure I don't speak
Any promises that I can't keep?
Am I someone You can brag about
Or are You just sitting there waiting
To call me out
Or are You too embarrassed, or even ashamed
To hear me claim Your name?
Let me rest on You for all I am
Let me find Your rock in my shifting sands
On the narrow road You've paved for me
Let me be the man You've made me to be
released January 9, 2009
Written by Evan Hildreth. Produced by Evan Hildreth and Kalen Stanton.